Lost memories

My day started okay, then suddenly something happened that changed my mood from "so-so" to "low-low". Oh gosh I don't know where to start. Was on my way to MCD's drivethru then suddenly while I was driving, there's a red traffic light ahead of me so I stopped, looked at the back thru the rear mirror (cause that is my habit when I am driving). Was unsure about the face but that smile looks so familiar to me, so very familiar that I actually stared at the guy in the car at the back of me thru the mirror... I don't know if he noticed, but I tried to keep it cool.

Was a bit blurry by the changes of his looks, but I knew it was him. It was my strong instincts that told me that it was him, and his girlfriend was beside him! My heart almost went weak for a sec, but I had to just ignore the feeling. All the memories played in my head, the memories during Primary School. He was my first but unfortunately we had to end it there cause... It was basically, well MAYBE it was just a puppy love. But I can't understand why do I get that kind of feeling when I am so over him already?

I drove, looked at the rear mirror again, and again, and AGAIN. Till he turned left into the junction. Only God knows how I felt that time. Well what if he was in front of me, what would I do? It gets even uglier if he's around me. I didn't enjoy my MCD meal later that day, even though I was craving for spicy chicken mcdeluxe.

It was not his fault tho, maybe I was a little freaked out when I saw him, and he grown up. Good for you boy. Maybe I should forget about the past, but what if I still can't? I can't live with the past and I know that. Jean, please get hold of yourself.

xoxo.

Normal.

Ever think of having a perfect date/ husband to be? Well no doubt I do. And also I wish for him to come into my life, and he did. Well, he's not that perfect to be exact. Nobody's perfect. Only God is perfect. Even tho he's not as perfect as I expected, I still love him for who he is. Okay... Sentimental moment hereeee!!

Anyway, girls, if you ever think that your date is playing weird behind your back, don't hesitate to call it quits because... You are killing yourself emotionally. One of my biggest weakness is being ego. I know that guys are created with the a little bit of ego in their heart but not for ladies right? So that makes me a weird combo.

Last night, I was cleaning up my book shelf and found something. It was a card that Mr. B gave to me during Valentines Day last year. It's still there, in the envelop. Then I recall the memories that I had with B, and I really wanna tell him the reason we had it quits. But I'm sure he is very busy with his business. So I was thinking "Hm, maybe one day when we bump into each other or what not."

And not just that, I dig out some old pictures of Anne & I, Clinton *during pasca PMR*, Dominic, Joannes & I, and my friends. Its so nice to have pictures of memories during my secondary school period. That's one way I can remember how much we enjoyed being there. And tomorrow Joannes & I plan to go to our secondary school to join the Gawai celebration with Anne & Ajong. :)

And maybe we can lepak2 somewhere after that.








xoxo.

Twit Twit.

Yo readers. It's been a reallllly long time ay? I was so busy studying this sem cause it is really a KILLER SEMESTER FOR SPA NUSING STUDENTS. Anyway, I'm fine & still kickin it! Went back to Miri on the 27th May night flight. Not much things to do in Miri except for being at home & do some chores, and my first outing, EVER, was with Wayne.


So Wayne & I just got to hangout at Starbucks & we chit chat about our lives at our own colleges. Pity him, he has only 2 weeks of holiday (or is it 1? can't remember) That was last Wednesday. On Friday, we went out again but this time Anne joined us :) I can't find Ajong in kolej & can't contact him tooo...

We went to Eplanade to meet Wayne. Then we thought of bringing Clinton (my long lost twin) along but he was in his auntie's house, so nevermind. Hehe. Again, we hangout at Starbucks & chit chat about something something. Ngumpat pun ada. So if any of you sneezes last Friday around evening time, HAHAHAHAHAHHAAH! Sepik asai.


After talking for around 1 hour plus, we went home. But before that I searched for some hot wedges (shoes) but unfortunately there are no hot wedges in Miri. Damn. Guess I have to order online! M.A.C contacted me about the new collection that is coming, the "Surf, baby" collection. I did reserved some makeup tools & bronzer for me. Can't wait to have em! I don't know why but I'm so addicted to bronzer. HAHAH.


Somehow I would love to have some products from Benefit, Smashbox, Bobbi Brown & also Makeup Forever. I love shading & contouring btw. So, that's it! :)

16. JANUAR 2011 Endlich!

Hahahahaha. OMG I had the best memory on that day :) The story begins like this...

I promised Joannes, Jeshua & Melvin that we have lunch at the cafe at 12.30. So yeah, practically we went there. We ate and talked a lot of stuffs. But something was amiss.

Joannes: Eeee! Saya mau keluar baaa. Mau ambik duit dr bank!

Jeshua: Ku pun! Ka meli utai ngena ba asrama.

Me: Aku juak! Mok bli barang & ambik duit juak!

Melvin: ..... Saya mana2 jak.

All: *Laugh out really loud*

Me: Kalau call itu van suruh ambik pun bayar. Dah gik susah nak pergi byk tempat. Bagus sewa kereta sendiri.

Joannes: Tp brapa la kalau sewa? Km sewa dr siapa? Xmahal ka?

Me: Tidaklah, kalo auto RM9 per jam dari Sir Noda. Minyak tanggung sendiri.

Joannes: Kalau last minit camni pun boleh ka?

Me: Cuba dulu la.

So we went to Sir Noda's place. LUCKILLY, HALLELUJAH! There's an automatic Kenari in the garage & I get to borrow it out. :DDDDD Without wasting anytime, I just get that car & got ready to go out with those 3 musketeers.

By 3pm we went out of the college to town. On the way, we stopped by Shell station at Penrissen *I think* and Joannes asked me to buy RM5. Okay ajakla. Skali when we were on the way to Batu 4, the car suddenly stopped and I looked at the petrol meter.... HMMMMM! HABIS LAGI!

So what the guys did was pushing the car. LUCKILLY AGAIN, the car stopped at around 200 meters in front of the petrol station. I was like OMG seriously, praise God for that. Joannes & Jeshua pushed the car there while Melvin & I stayed in the car with muka blur. Both of us kan slim. HAHAHA.


Okay, so then we bought RM25 petrol. HAH! Ambik kaw. Hehehe. The whole journey was fine :) so firstly we went to Wisma Saberkas, then Sunny Hill ice cream and Spring. And everytime there's a bump ahead, Jeshua will make lots of noises (macam mpuan mok beranak) GILA. P-S-Y dah nya. Hahaha.


Did a bit of shopping & went back to college. On the way back... I didn't exactly remember the road back from certain areas in Kuching so just bedal jaklah. Tersesat pulak ke Waterfront! Aiyooo. Maklumla bukan org Kuching kan.

Reached college at 6pm then we payed Sir Noda & went back to our hostel. At 8pm we went to kedai luar to eat dinner :) And that was it for that day! Had a great time with you 3 :) lookin forward to spend crazy times with you guys again!












xoxo.

6. Januar 2010

HAAALUU! Ich bin nicht gut. :S Down with a cold. And I wish I can be in a very thick blanket right now. So, today's agenda is: THE HUMAN EMOTION.

You know, I had this situation few days back when my friend & I were being left out & be hated just because of a simple thing, which is for not inviting B to an occasion. I know it may sound ridiculous but IT HAPPENS OKAY?!

Back to the story, yea, after we finished watching the whole show, B came with her guy friend. Of course we can't talk to her because she was sitting right at the end of the auditorium. So we kinda like... Ignore her, not literally. She thought that we didn't care about her so she left. How ironic? YES!

I know that different people have different levels of thinking, but at least laaaa. Be reasonable & rational for a bit. I mean not just because of not inviting B to an important occasion doesn't mean that I don't care about you. If you're reading this & you think that it's really you, please take my words kay?

xoxo.

Gutes neues Jahr!

Oh la la! Finally it's New Year's eve & now, it's 11.16 pm. Close to midnight. And I wanna take this opportunity to wish all of you there a happy new year 2011! And please, do have a pleasant one for me kay? Hehehe. So I'm bloggin now while listening to the harmonious sounds of the FIRE CRACKERS OUTTA MY HOUSE! It's so noisy that my dogs hide under my car *5 of them, really*

So, what is your new year's resolution? For me *cough* erm, I have some, I think:

#1 Succeed in Semester 2 and 3

#2 Improve on my makeup skills

#3 Workout & tone my bodeh!

#4 Be talkative a bit

And that's it! Anybody who celebrate their birthday, *remembered my ex Jed* oh happy birthday to you! You're so lucky boy.

Well yup, that's it for now. Toodles :)

xoxo

27. DEZEMBER 2010

Liebe die Design. Welches sollte ich Wählen?

Draches ist das symbol des schuztes der Erwägung, dass der Tiger stellt Stärke

Zwei Tiere Ich mag!

For those of you who notice something about my blog, yeah its black! Hahaha. Just wanna change once in a while :)

My stomach churns. Have no appetite today. What has ever happen to me? Is this the feeling that I've been wanting to feel since the last time I depart frm the lover? Somehow I kinda like it tho. I just don't know why! Keeping it cool tho :|

Didn't go for visiting on Christmas yesterday, so is today. Cause I'm pretty lazy. Not in the Christmas spirit with when there are no friends around. Here I am, alone. Blogging =.= Christmas is another usual day for me. But I get to celebrate in a modest way : that is having dinner at KFC. Hahaha. At least that could help!

Sam called me up yesterday but he was still in his friend's house in ocean park. OMG that is so like far away at the end of miri. Been listening & noticing that R&B music nowadays are meaningless. It's all about fornication (trying to be polite OKAY?) drugs & drinking. Partying is also in the list but, I'll make it an exception. But I love love love Lil Wayne's Knockout featuring Nicki Minaj cause it's very unique. Noone has ever used rock band to make hip hop songs right?

Missing Kuching & KSKB now. Miss my colleagues too! Will be going back on the 2nd of January 2011. And oh btw, Joannes Marvin is gonna be there taking M.A so he will be my junior! Muahahaha. At least I have someone to laugh out really loud when I want! So see you there aite?

Anne, Ajong, and Jeanna! I wanna hangout with you guys but I don't knw when are you FREEE?! I think I'm going crazy over here HAHAHAHHAA.

xoxo